Holidays are always the most difficult times to be away from home. Right now I’ve reached a phase where I am just waiting for the course to finish so that I can go home. A monotony has set over the campus and I can see that almost everyone is feeling the same way.
For the first time in nine months I am missing home, missing my old routine where I could be as lazy as I wanted to be. I always love being busy, but for the first time it is getting to me. I feel mentally exhausted in-spite of having many mini vacations and weekend get-aways. And that’s because even though I am away, mentally I am constantly thinking about assignments, projects and classes. I don’t think I have completely let go and relaxed because I know that the vacation going to end and I would have to go back to the hectic schedule of classes and studies. Stupid I know. You need to live in the present. But the past, present and future here is too jam packed to “let go” that easily.
The question of “what next” still looms large over my head. I had the same question after finishing schooling and after graduation, but this time I thought I would see a crystal clear path. I couldn’t have been more wrong. There never is a clear path. There never is a certain, definite direction. There is no definite answer for success either. Hundreds around me are clamoring around for jobs… some job, any job that pays. I know I definitely don’t want to end up like that. But sometimes its hard to not get swayed by the masses around you. I need to hold my ground.. I have my dreams. I need to stop doubting them and start believing in them. So what if they are drastically different. So what if half of the crowd doesn’t even understand them. Its for me to understand and build upon them. For me to be happy.
This is going to be one of the most trying times for me. A real challenge. A real test. And there is no looking back.
Enough ranting? Yeah I thought so too!
Jeans : Lee
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Yeah vacations are like that.. Nice look!
merry xmas and happy 2013!!!
True.. there never is a clear path and “what next” doesn't always have an answer. But don't worry you will always chart your path. Sometimes it just is a matter of time..when things too much for this is what I say to myself!
T G A F A,
Never let faith in self waiver. Keep faith in self and God to make your dreams into reality. One who does not have dreams is not living life as it should be. If you feel comfortable, share what course you are doing and your dreams also.
Good luck to you in whatever decision(s) you decide to make towards your future. As for your outfit, I really like this chocolate brown shirt. The studded flats are also nice.
Yeah,I'm going through the same phase. I know exactly what you mean. P.S. Pretty shoes!
Sometimes you stumble upon and read something, which is exactly what you have been ruminating about for several days. Kindred thoughts:)
Well, good luck in building on the dreams 🙂
AWESOME TOP MY LOVE :). I am so FOLLOWING. I hope you can check out my site: http://theproverbs.net and follow as well. So we can keep posted on each other. Thanks for your time. Hope to hear from you soon…God Bless!
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LOVE your top! and the way you write 🙂