Look who decided to grace this space with her presence!
I seriously feel like I’ve forgotten how to type and how to translate my thoughts into words. There’s no scarcity of thoughts tho. What with everything happening in the world since the beginning of the year, 2020 has made sure that there’s something for everyone to say on every single topic. Either you have too many thoughts crammed up in your head that you feel like you’ll explode like a volcano and burn everything in your path, or you feel so numb that you want to lie in bed and not move a muscle for a month. There’s no in between and I’m certain almost everyone will agree with me on that.
I was sipping my evening coffee today, and trying to figure out the same thing that half the world is trying to figure out right now – What is 2020? Why is 2020? WHAT THE ACTUAL EFFFFF IS HAPPENING? From forest fires to hurricanes, political dramas to revolutions, economic crisis to major health crisis – we have officially seen it all and more.
Completely-extremely-mentally-tired-and-exhausted is an understatement.
March and April felt like being thrown into a different world. A scary new world that was dangerous and unsafe. A world that had a common enemy. An enemy we couldn’t see but could feel was creeping around and we were trying to contain it. Curfews on the road, not a soul in sight. Terrified to step out even for essentials. Not meeting family and friends, work going down, and life on a complete standstill.
May and June gave no hope either. We were just waiting for the inevitable – for the enemy to catchup with us.
July was a CRAZY month. Covid finally entered our lives, hitting us like a wall of bricks. Almost everyone knew someone in their immediate family and circle that had tested positive for Covid-19. Things just kept escalating while the economy opened up again.
August finally brought in some peace and good news for me personally. The rest of the world was still as f*cked up as it could get. And it was getting worse day by day. Each day saw a new nightmare, unimaginable ones, until we were too numb to be surprised by yet another horror that was happening in the world. But on a personal front, August saw some good changes. Two family members recovered completely from Covid, we moved to a new house finally, I had the space (physically and mentally) to breathe and start functioning like a somewhat normal version of myself. Work had ever so slightly started to pick up.Which brings us to right now, September. The horrors continue but life continues to happen with or without you. And it’s upto you whether you choose to be involved in it or not.
We rejoiced at first – for not having to drive to work, for getting time to create new content, picking up long pending skills, baking our banana breads and whipping up dalgona coffees. Now everyone I know is numb, tired, bored, exhausted, vexed and completely clueless as to what to do next or where their life is heading.
Yet we manage to survive, manage to wake up everyday for another fight, do things with family and for family, still find joy within the restrictions imposed & find comfort within the confines of our homes. Human beings are a weird lot. A weird but resilient bunch. And now everyone’s waiting for 2021 like it’s going to be a new chapter that will push the terror of 2020 into some dark corner of the universe.
That’s the thing with hope. It’s hard to resist. Life is a circle of happiness, sadness, hard times and good times. And now we not only wait, but take action. Only then can we say that better days are coming.